Truth and Light Whisper
Dark corners pass me
Looking past the peace
Offered by false stillness
Wringing pain in loss
Mark of other’s wrong
Betrayal of my own best
They cling for focus
Stalking for attention
To give them satisfaction
Muscle, sinews, nerves
Forced forward-- they don’t
Will it of their own
They must be told
Not today.
Shaking with effort
A body or soul
Strengthens against
Opposition of comfortable
Licking wounds
Injects bacteria
Healing salve offered,
In sacrificed Love.
Shown possible to each
Not forced, simply given.
By Leta Greene
Dear Leta,
ReplyDeleteDo You remember me? I am Erin's mom. I met you at Cal's blessing. My heart was touched by your story and your willingness to give in spite of your loss and your pain. I thought of years ago when we lost our 3rd child at birth. I felt your emptiness. I remembered when people would say to me that I was lucky I had 2 other children. I was lucky that I had Lynell and Mindy but that did not diminish the pain of the loss of Lyle. I think that people were try to help but just don't know what to say.
I can tell you that it does get easier with time. I am sure that others have told you that over and over. After all of these years I still think of Lyle.... but now the sting is gone. Now I can smile, knowing he is better off where he is. I always knew that but the loss was so painful that I ached to have him with me and I didn't want him in a "better" place. I wanted him with me.
Licking old wounds does make them raw again.... but sometimes you just can't help licking... and then.... one day you realize that the sore has healed. The scar is still there and you will always remember.... but the terrible pain is gone.
I know waiting for that time to come is hard. I know having patience is hard. Sometimes even finding faith can be hard. I was almost killed in a terrible accident on March 25th,on the way to Ellie's sealing. I spent 6 weeks in the hospital with 15 broken ribs, a broken sternum and a collapsed lung. I am home now, in a hospital bed. I am told it will take 8 month to a year to heal. I am tired of the pain and sick of being down not able to do much of anything....
I know how you feel. We both have faith but it is hard to have patience. However, healing will come. We both see signs of it. We both know we are blessed. It just takes time. We both have lessons we can learn whether we want to or not.
God is good. He loves us and knows our pain. He is there to comfort and support us... of that we can be sure... we just have to reach out to Him and let Him comfort us.
Your little Katelynn is nearer to you than you may realize. You will have her again one day. Put some new suave on that wound. It will continue to heal.... not quickly but IT WILL HEAL. Much love, Lura